I'm walking for my HoneyBunny.
Days keep turning into weeks that keep turning into years of me missing you. It's almost as painful as watching the days/years pass while you went through your sickness. Not remembering was just the first step. Then came the yelling. Then the crying from me and then from you. I'll never forget the day it went from bad to worse.
It was when we needed to go to the hospital for the cut on your leg. Paw Paw called me at work, "Heather, you need to convince your HB to get into the ambulance. She won't listen to me." I calmed you down and told you I needed you to meet me at the hospital. I needed you. You agreed to get into the ambulance and I hurried to the hospital. We spent the whole day in the waiting room in the ER. Mom met us there with some paperwork HB needed to sign. The kind that stated that HB could no longer make medical decision for herself. I got you to sign them. I felt like I was betraying you, but we both knew you weren't capable anymore.
Later in the evening, we had a sleep over in the hospital. It was just me and you. We griped about being stuck in the hospital and got to cuddle in the tiny hospital bed. We were getting up to go to the restroom and you had an accident. (I know TMI, but what happens next just broke my heart.) I said, "It's ok, HoneyBunny. We are in just the place for this." You looked at me and starting crying. I've never seen you cry before. You said, "I'm so sorry, Heather. I don't want to be like this." It was the first time you admitted what was going on and it was the last time you were able to do move around on your own.
I hate what Alzheimer's did to my HoneyBunny. I want the years back that it took away from me. We weren't perfect. We fought. We didn't see eye to eye, but I knew that she loved me with her whole heart. She would be there for me in the snap of a finger.
It's an ugly disease that threatens many families. It's slow. It's manipulative. It's destructive. I walk now to raise awareness and to raise funds for medical development. I walk to provide support groups for caretakers. I walk for you my dear.
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