My Mom...My Story!
Anyone who has had to deal with this ugly disease...has a story.
I sat visiting my Mom, as she stared at a door with tear filled eyes, waiting for someone, anyone to come through so she could say Hello!
After a long hour of hearing her cries and screams to caregivers entering her privacy and putting this very private woman through what...yes, was care, but very intrusive to her sweet soul. Her hair was done, her nails were pretty...she was comfy now in her own favorite chair... waiting...waiting...waiting...to Remember!
We chatted about things that I hoped would bring back fond memories to help...she would smile...that most beautiful mama smile and say...
"Oh really? That's nice!" She wanted to Remember... she tried...she was confused...she cried! We Cried! She would hold her hands over her face and ask... " why is this happening?" This was my best friend, that I went to for answers...and when she so sweetly asked me a question...it was one... I could not answer! I was the one sitting with a blank stare!
There were some laughs and bits of her memory would come home...then in a blink of an eye they were gone. My heart hurt as I sat helplessly, watching, this woman, my hero, my mom... fade into a darkness that I, or no one, could add light...to ease the fear of this terrible trip.
Alzheimer's is a disease that does its worst to it's target, but it leaves loved ones with memories that are really living nightmares! My mom was dying slowly in front of my eyes and my greed took over, wanting to keep her, when I knew her only peace would be to pass away. ;(
When it was time for me to leave... I held her hand and hugged her... I said..." mom , I need to go now"... she put both hands in my face and said " it's okay honey, my daughter will be here soon...you go ahead" and kissed me on the cheek. My heart hit my knees as they buckled beneath me and I couldn't see for tears... my last kiss from my mom...one that would have to last me throughout my years!
We celebrated her life with family and friends. Most lives went on...
I ... until I can't...will fight for a cure to END ALZHEIMER'S!
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